Dimensional Thinking – The Mandela (Mandala) Effect, Forbidden Knowledge, Forbidden History, and Why We Should Not Be Afraid

I have ALWAYS been the kind of person slightly on the outside of society.
When I was younger I dabbled in Wicca, was interested in UFOS, mysticism, etc. I didn’t understand things that I do now. What I am saying is these recent changes have not been sudden for me. Yes, things are speeding up phenomenally for me since about the beginning of this year, maybe even more recent than that, but for ME, I have been on an upward slope for awhile. I believe part of it has to do with spiritual development.
I am a recovering addict. I have been in a 12 step program for over 10 years, with some hiccups along the way. I currently have 6 years clean. Anyways, it has FORCED me to incorporate what we call “spiritual principles” in my life. You can call them whatever you like but they are the base teachings of any old or new belief, myth, story, knowledge, anything “people like us” are finding the common thread to in EVERYTHING we find when we research. I have began to call it “Dimensional Thinking”. I call it this because if you layer all the old and new stories above and below each other but then reach out in all directions to different cultures, geographies, races, then you take what you think you learned and let it remain fluid, not become rigid; the thinking is more representative of a dimensional pattern than we are used to.
Anyways, I believe my pursuit in trying to “practice these principles in all our affairs” has kept me sane. I am not speaking religiously or even spiritually, per se. The common thread in everything we are learning is that Love (meaning more than any one WORD can describe, which is why symbols, that the eye turns to energy and frequency, and the same for sounds, are a much better form of learning and communication [search for David Icke]), being the main way we function, and all the things that come from that like compassion, tolerance, unity, willingness, open-mindedness, etc, are a part of this. Fear, anger, resentments, hate, and all beyond that keep us small.
Humility is the most important of them all.
Now when u look at it that basically, doesn’t that look like what EVERY teaching, story, religion, battle between good and evil, even agnostically….all of it is saying?
We complicate this by our pursuit of knowledge, but something in us inherently craves knowledge. That is the mystery for me.
Einstein said something along the lines of you cannot solve problems with the same level of consciousness that created them.
Ask questions. My motto for years has been Educate Yourself. I have actually had this blog for awhile called F33dYourHead. Now I know the implications of anything to do with Wonderland, Alice, the White Rabbit so I somewhat regret the decision to name it that but my intentions were pure.  But we can’t keep chasing our tail with questions (Ouroborus- the snake eating it’s own tail forever). We have to be on a path alongside the questions. Use your intuition, not your reptilian 5 senses.

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The Ouroborus

 
Starting to see the story emerging? It goes so much deeper. Our ancestors used symbolism in stories because it evokes things inside us words alone cannot and while the written word is fabulous, we were able to maintain soooooooooo much of our past, it is the symbols within it (bible stories, kabbalah, sacred geometry, creation myths, cultural beliefs, gods, etc.) that is the message; the apple, the serpent, the ring, etc.5349648_f520 Look for these things. The answer is IN us, but I believe from things I’ve learned that there are other real entities out there.
Some places I’ve looked and some may already have looked here; remember you cannot buy into any one thing whole heartedly 100%, just hear the common threads, whether these people are religious, atheists, etc:

Trey Smith – he has a YouTube channel with soooooooooo much info. From the Days of Noah, nephilim, Christian camp, but like I said the importance is in connecting the dots, the common threads.

Anything Transhumanism – ties into nephilim and matrix reality and end game of one world government and the elite

Extra-dimensional beings

The coming deception

A YouTube channel called Spirit Science Central

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Hermes Trismegistus

Aleister Crowley – careful on this one, the most wicked man alive but it will help to understand things on the THEM side of this, who is helping THEM if there is a them or it or whatever that storyline is representing through time, and other things.

The Bock Saga – about sound frequencies and the ring especially, especially the lecture by Tony Topping

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The Tower of Babel – and a lot of things biblically related because the stories there are telling us something. I believe this story is about another time that hidden powers (the elite on earth and their unseen, lying, not completely of this world “partners” tried to reach a state of their own godliness (transhumanism) and be their own creators in some way but something went wrong.aliens-shiningones The story in the Bible is that everyone on Earth spoke the same language, somehow they ended up in Shinar (Shinar? like shine? like elohim? the shining ones? Anunnaki? light? like the name Lucifer meaning light? Common themes again). Anyway, Nimrod (another figure to research and I think it’s funny myself that calling someone a nimrod is calling them incredibly stupid), great grand son of Noah, king of Shinar, “a mighty hunter before the Lord (Orion?)”, or in other translations “a mighty hunter in the face of the Lord”, who represents no actual historical figure but is probably like any other of these stories a symbolic representation of something, here possibly being a group of people, beings, what have you that were in opposition to “God” (what does God represent? All things good. Spiritual Principles, the real us, the Truth, the Way [the way to what or where and opposed to what other way to that same place or to be]).

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Nimrod

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Orion

He builds this Tower of Babel. Again, it probably was not a real tower. It is said it was made so high as to reach God. Symbolically, they were trying to artificially find a shortcut or trying to create things artificially (this can play into transhumanism, gene splicing, look up the spider goat, it relates back again to the nephilim, this is just one interpretation but in reality it is probably this and more). I’m sure they were using the wider population to build the tower in the story but symbolically, like today the few were guiding the many to reach a goal455613337 ( the pyramid, the all-seeing eye. If you look at that it clearly represents a small few at the top separated and illuminated (Illuminati, the shining ones, light whatever that truly represents I don’t know) with eye opened and the rest of the pyramid is us). The story goes God was not happy and he confused everyone by supernaturally causing all of the people to speak different languages so they could no longer understand each other or work together as a one world entity (one world government) to reach the goal of the few.
SUPERNATURALLY CONFUSING THE PEOPLE, CHANGING THEIR LANGUAGE, SO THEY NO LONGER SPOKE THE SAME LANGUAGE…..DOES THAT SOUND FAMILIAR TO WHAT IS HAPPENING NOW?
Does it have to be God doing it or a god? No, yes, who knows. We don’t know.
I believe that these things happening are FOR us.
The so called Mandela Effect (I hate that name why aren’t we calling it the Mandala Effect sacred-geometry-141-endre-balogh-400x250[a diagram representing the universe or cosmos in the microcosm. In Hinduism it is a yantra – reality lived – inner/outer world. Is that not perfect or what?]) could be the universes way of protecting us, a fail-safe from something.

If you look at some of the Atlantis, Thoth, Lemurian stories which is more about human consciousness than religion it talks about how we use to know about these types of phenomenon.Atlantisdiag.png It talks about cycles of consciousness, so much information. Again, I warn….you cannot totally envelope yourself in the teachings or words of any one school of thought. You would only be imprisoning yourself again to closed-mindedness, would not have the full story. When we stop thinking fluidly (search the Sacred Feminine, right brained vs left brained, sacred geometry and the Fibonacci Spiral representing how male and female energy is inherent and both necessary, Lemurian myths talk about how we have become a right brained consciousness ) we focus our attention in on the details and ignore our intuition.

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Fibonacci Spiral with male and female energy represented in the angular and curve.

I beleive this is why we continue to feel let down on our spiritual journeys. So many teachings tell us the answer is within us (not that we are our own Gods or our own Creators, this is where others of us go wrong, but that the ability to navigate our own intuition is present). We have to believe in ourselves again, begin to trust your own feelings, your own ideas, where things are guiding you in YOUR life.

For example, this is my first time being able to write this all out into one thought but I am confident in it because I know myself, through some real sweat and blood work (that fortunately I’ve been blessed enough to be faced to do because of my addiction issues but would not work in this form for other people) and I know that my two main “talents” or strengths have always been in being able to take facts and figures and pieces of the small pictures and be able to see a larger picture. Also, I have always been able to write well and in a way that is meaningful, flowing, and engages a reader. That is probably why I never felt comfortable doing videos.
Those are MY universal talents. They make up me but they, I believe, are also meant to be used to assist, in some small way, my small part of the whole, whatever that may be.
I believe (I keep saying I believe because this is where I am at this point in my learning) that we are meant to be more aware of the whole than we are. That’s why something feels off, life never feels….right. I never feel…..whole.
I think when we attempt to understand these questions, this fundamental void inside of us that whatever it is, whatever happened to us, or that we did to ourselves, or others did to us, or whatever causes things like our ego, self-righteousness, judgement, our need to be right, all of our inherent faults (look at any story relating to 1974744-EHFFLAPO-7Original Sin, the Fall of Man, or Fall of Consciousness levels and more. They all have to do with an event or symbolizes our inherent ability to climb past a certain point in understanding) to block us from being able to connect the dots correctly. Some recognize this but some continue forward wholly believing they are in the right. That the end justifies the means. Look at stories of super heroes and villains even in modern times. Some villains or even the “bad guy” in stories, books, and movies start out believing they are doing the right thing but then will be willing to do anything to accomplish their goal. Even the good guys struggle with this at times. Only, to realize before it is too late not to cross that line that makes them what we feel is heroic or honorable.
Holy shit rant, but I digress.

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Also, educate yourself on quantum physics, quantum mechanics, metaphysics, entanglement, modern sciences. It is all related. Old stories, new stories, old beliefs, new science.
There is a truth to as above, so below, as without, so within. We have proven this.
I believe this is true for EVERYTHING and so did others from our past.
EDUCATE YOURSELF
F33DyourHEAD

Decoding The Truth

A Feud Between Biblical Archeologists Goes To Court, an article written by Nina Burleigh for Time in 2013 has peeked my interest in this age of an information deluge (maybe pun intended?).

I have felt some kind of a calling lately, we can call it a very strong urge if you like, to head down a road of research and information gathering on our history, spiritual matters, our future, what is happening in the present; as do many other people in these times.

I was experiencing an information overload and so decided to just “relax and watch tv”.  Even this is difficult for me to commit to, so I settled on documentaries, went on my Amazon Prime and found a show called Decoding the Ancients.  The man hosting the show is Simcha Jacobovici, an Israeli-Canadian film director, producer, freelance journalist, and writer.  Also, he is better known as The Naked Archeologist.  You can read more about him at the link above.  He has several degrees and a background in Religious Studies.

Where my own amateur research is taking me, one direction anyways, seems to be similar.  That when we focus in on or “buy into” any one ideology we are being fed as a whole, already all packaged up, we are missing a great deal of relevant information.

There are newer articles on this case, by the way, he won.  This is just the one, like I said, that peeked my interest.

If you are a fellow Rabbit Hole diver you may have already noticed similarities in old and modern stories, myths, traditions, beliefs.  The thinking that we are used to, angular, analytical, from here to there, linearly has also been referred to as left-brained thinking, male thinking, etc.

I am not going to cite resources, it is preferable for us to have our curiosities tickled and then seek the information on our own.  Start with any of the modern conspiracy theories like The New World Order and Satan Worship or The Tower of Babel (completely male brained group of people building a tower to God), alien mythology and how the story is that they have lost their emotions, empathy, ability to create art, to love, Lemurian myths and how the Martians came and they were completely left brained and began guiding us in that direction and we had a fall in consciousness (The Fall of Man), the Gnostic teachings of the Demiurge and the Archons.  Down and down we go.

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Male and Female represented in Fibonacci Spiral.  You get to the same place but in different ways.  Keep going down the Rabbit Hole on this one.  It leads to the serpent, thus the curse of the woman and the serpent, how she will be subservient to the man, etc, etc.

In many old and new traditions there seems to be a theme that we have somehow lost, had taken away, are closed off from right brained thinking, female thinking, fluid thinking, the ability to look at several things at once and see truth.

Using this model, trying to use both ways of thinking is how I have settled in to my learning.  It has expanded my ability to understand the information I’m finding and that is being given to me immensely.  I retain it, I build on it.  I have a rule.  I don’t stay on any one ideology whole heartedly.  That is settling into left brained thinking.  I keep things fluid, not my life, not the way I live, just my information gathering and processing.

How does this relate.  What does it have to do with the price of tea in China?

My searching and the truths I am finding and the things I am experiencing, i.e. The Mandela Effect (I’m still confused on this as it has happened to me only recently and I am not ready to talk about it) have led me to accept Christianity and the Bible as containing many truths.  However, experience has shown me, if I stop there I will know only half-truths.

I like this take on exploring the Bible, he has done good research.  The article and he court case allow me to feel comfortable that he genuinely believes in what he does.

It is a good SOURCE of information, but again, I cannot let it be another TRUTH, but some of the truth.

Thanks for reading.  Keep chasing the White Rabbit.

Renovating Your Life: A Recovery Metaphor

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I woke up this morning with the house to myself.  I was going to either just lounge around or clean but there is this room, sitting there for weeks, that I started painting and pulling off the wallpaper.  I decided instead to get a little more done in the room today.  I have had to put it on hold because of pain issues after a few neck surgeries, but I was feeling plucky this morning.

As I am tearing wallpaper off and scraping I realized it was a lot like my life.  You see, I am a recovering addict in a Twelve Step Program.

I felt like this room was one of the pieces inside of me that I decided to work on for the day after letting it sit partly torn apart for a long period of time.

The wallpaper is like peeling away the layers from my past to get to a new surface to graft new ideas and a new life.  Some parts are easy and peel away in chunks, some parts are stuck and I have to put a lot of effort into it, some parts aren’t ready to come off today or I am in too much pain or too tired to work at it.  No matter what, however, removing any of it requires some form of action.  If I just sat in the middle of the room and made a decision to change it and followed with no action, the room would still be sitting there making me uncomfortable, not how I want it to be or wish it to be.

My sponsor has said several times since I’ve known her, that the only person who walks your entire journey with you from beginning to end completely, is you.  It made me think of how I have had to ask people to come help me at times with the project.

I had to first let people know that I was doing some work in this room for anyone to even know I needed help.  Some offered with no asking, some I had to ask a few times before they finally came over, some couldn’t because they didn’t know how.  Some of them were there at the beginning and some later on.  Some people were better at helping and some tried but didn’t have the experience and I had to go back over those parts again myself.  Some made things a little worse than when I started.  Others still could not help and then some sat and watched and did nothing as the walls came down right in front of them, knowing I needed the help, after I had asked them and they were capable, but they were unwilling to help or too stuck in their own mess to even notice.

I didn’t finish it today and that is ok, I even left it a mess but swept a little bit to organize.  It will be there when I am ready to do the work, and God knows I will need help.

I will go through pain after making these changes today and that is ok too.  That is the beauty of living Just For Today, there is always a tomorrow.

What Ignorance Can Do To Individuals, Communities, and Society in Two Small Examples

Well, I had an eventful morning. I went out to get coffee and cigarettes (first let me say, uh, yum) immediately upon rolling out of bed.

I was at the 7-11 talking to an old friend I grew up with for a while about a few different subjects on family and life. As I went to leave there was some commotion outside.

I learned two things today and they both lead to the same conclusion; what the motto of F33DyourHEAD is and my own personal motto since I can remember.

Educate yourself!!!!!!

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1. Educate yourself on what your kids are being taught; whether in school, church, girl scouts, boy scouts, etc.

My friend talked recently with my sister who told her their church told her kids that there is no such thing as Santa. One of my sister’s children is old enough to know this anyways but, the other…..if they only knew that the littlest one’s father died on Christmas Eve, tragically, which will probably scar him for the rest of his life, they might have known better than to strip the one thing away from him on Christmas that still allowed it to be somewhat magical.  On a day when sadness is stronger than the joy of ripping open presents and meeting with family he will remember that as the day he learned his father died and now the day when Santa died and nothing in this world is as we hope or believe.  Possibly, down the road, he will be ok, but there is also a possibility it could lead to a more negative outcome. My sister tried to correct what they said but it was already too late.

2. Educate yourself when a situation is happening before you go taking pictures, posting them on Facebook and going off on rants which have absolutely nothing to do with what is happening.

We were outside smoking a cig, finishing up our conversation and some people drove up and parked at the 7-11 all in a hissy because if we had bothered to look right around the corner we would have seen a school bus full of small children and what looked like it being pulled over, the children taken off and the police officer going on and for some reason a prison bus pulled over on the next block ahead. It happens to be, I found out from my fellows, that today, a local high school was having a protest about bullying because some kid was beat up on a bus and is in a coma (according to the not so sure sources).  Here is a link to the actual incident.  The issue discussed at a recent school board meeting about school violence, I assume, was the reason for the protest.  Again, this is an assumption. They were on their way to the protest.  One man feverishly showed us pictures he took of the police pulling the kids from the bus and was figuring out how to post them to Facebook.  A woman commented on the sad state of the public school system in our town and city.  Another women commented on racism which, even if knowing nothing about the situation, is a large leap in logical thinking and reasoning.  The comment started with, Look I’m not racist or anything, but….” and I stopped listening to the rest.  The other woman who worked at the store (not my friend) came out to see and commented walking away, “That’s why I don’t want my kids going to public school” and walked back in the store to surely have gone on to tell the unknown versions of the tale to many others walking in that day, thus spreading an uneducated guess on what was happening.  There was speculation of a fight on the bus, a possibility that it had to do with the protest, etc.

Me, being who I am, said goodbye to my friend got in my car, drove around the block and asked the man filming from the local news, “What happened?”.  I was told by the cameraman the bus hit a prison transport vehicle.  Again, still not the exact truth.

Here is the simple truth of it, according to Steve Thomas (you can find his information here), head bus driver for the Elmira City School District.  The prison bus backed up to make room for another school bus and the Department of Corrections vehicle’s rear window moved the mirror on the school bus in question, no damage reported.  That’s it.  The children were taken off of the bus after the police arrived, which is their call.  The procedures state, again according to Steve Thomas, that names and birth dates and positions on the bus need to be recorded.  The students were then put on another bus and sent to school.  I went online in search of procedures in the event of a collision of a school bus and another vehicle.  I have included links to these documents in the article.  I tried to do a search for NYS Department of Corrections Accident Procedures but came up with nothing worthy of sharing a link to.  I am sure for security reasons these are kept confidential.

I tried to find the procedures for Chemung County or the Elmira City School District online and came up with nothing specific, so I did the next available thing and found a procedure for another county in New York State not too far from our own.

When looking at the school bus procedures for Putnam County (another county in New York State), it states under Procedure For Bus Driver:

“All passengers should remain in the vehicle unless fire or other hazardous conditions exist that warrant evacuation. In any event, it is extremely important that injured persons are not moved unless a hazard exists that presents an imminent danger of further injury.”

However, it also says under Procedure for General Operation:

“Emergency services agencies (police, fire, EMS), if called, will take charge of the accident scene upon their arrival. A school district representative (the superintendent, or person designated by the superintendent to have decision-making authority) will be dispatched to the accident scene (distance and time permitting), will report to the command post and will participate in unified command.”

The police had a right to decide in this case to remove the children from the bus.

As for the prison transport van it is unclear whether any prisoners were even aboard.  Logic follows that precautions would be taken to ensure that all locks were still functioning and that there were no escapes before almost anything else was done, including removing the children from the bus.

If you would like to read further about any of the procedures, please follow the links included in this article.

My main point in this second lesson is that without knowing what is happening we can cause a mass hysteria in a city before any facts are even released.  People at the protest for bullying today will surely spread the rumors of the school bus seen being “pulled over by police” and their children unjustly dragged from the school bus, assumingly afraid and scarred by the incident and put in potential danger by the proximity of a prison transport van.  This can add irrational fuel to an already boiling over issue.

When we don’t use the tools available to us to educate ourselves about issues and situations in our lives, things are children and ourselves are being taught, damage can happen, and exponentially so in the second case.  Personal responsibility for the knowledge we have or need to obtain is paramount to a saner world.

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Angry Addict

I’m hoping that by sharing this here…I don’t fucking kill some newcomer at a meeting.  I just moved back to my hometown….again.  I am starting over with doctors, therapists, etc.  I have to START OVER every time I move.  For the past 10 years I have suffered from chronic pain in my neck and my back due to a freak incident while visiting a friend at a correctional facility.  I was attacked, not only once, but twice by an inmate who assumed I had purposely “pushed” his girlfriend (which I did not).  For the last 4-5 years the major cause of pain has been from 3 bulging discs in my neck that irritate a nerve that runs from my neck and down my right arm.  It hurts every minute of every day.

I am home again because I moved to Syracuse, NY to attend college at SUNY College of Environmental Science and Forestry and because of the pain (being “treated” mind you) I could not keep up in my classes.  I attempted to hold out because this was my dream.  I was only making things worse by ending each semester with horrible grades and unfinished assignments due to time off and/or my inability to write, take notes,  read for long periods of time, and sit at a desk for hours on end…let alone getting there on a bus, lugging around all my books, trying to sit through lectures, and getting home on the bus.

I get to a place many many times where I feel helpless, hopeless and like life will never be worth living for me again (this is while being “treated”).  I am a resilient person and have been able to bounce back each time only to find myself in this place again where I feel dark, alone, and like giving up (my life).

I am 30 years old, on disability, and trying to survive for the last 10 years on $780 a month.  I am ALWAYS only JUST making ends meet.  So on top of the physical pain there is the stress of everyday expenses, not having money to just relax and have fun, and I am always pinching pennies.  When I don’t act frugally I suffer greatly from backed-up bills, lack of rent, etc.

I am also a recovering addict.

I had a few relapses over the last year after over 4 years clean.  I used from the time I was 15ish starting with marijuana and alcohol and I progressed and “graduated” to other drugs from there.  I am one of those addicts who TRULY believes I was born with this disease.  Since the day I was born I struggled and suffered emotionally and spiritually, feeling like I was alone, there was no one like me, I was going to live and die this way and no one cared or could see.  I also grew up in a situation where there was addiction and mental health constantly causing more than just minor problems in my life which only lead to more feelings of abandonment, betrayal and despair.

I felt EVERY emotion as raw as it could be felt, I took everything personally and I turned it ALL inward just hoping someday someone would magically become aware of the fucking hell I was existing in and take me away or fix me.  But then, I found drugs.  This did the trick for awhile and I even had “friends”.  This is not about the drugs though today so we will skip all of this.

I found recovery, was doing work on myself inwardly and learning to trust people, recognizing I was NOT alone and it was NOT the end of the world.  I was also dealing with chronic pain.  The fucked up shit I’m feeling today is that while everyone is telling me More Will Be Revealed, and Give it To God, and talking about the journey inwards (and wanting with all my heart to believe this)…I was held back by my constant struggle to find a solution for the daily suffering I was experiencing due to chronic pain.  To me, there was no hope, there were no solutions…sure I could be all peachy on the inside, get right with God, learn to make good decisions…and I even believe there is a Higher Power that can help fill the void I feel without the drugs in my life that I still to this day try and fill with a man to make me feel good, or busy-work, or drama.  I honestly DO believe that.

It ALWAYS comes back to this though.  I can pray my little fucking ass off, work towards solutions for the pain, see doctors, follow the right routes, be doing stepwork, staying away from vices, help newcomers, do service work, feel hope in OTHER areas of my life even sometimes feel some preliminary hope in this area, practice patience…but I DO NOT BELIEVE THAT THERE IS A HIGHER POWER WHO, BECAUSE I ALL OF A SUDDEN DECIDE TO LIVE RIGHT AND WITH ALL THE OTHER SUFFERING IN THE WORLD, WILL TAKE AWAY THE PHYSICAL PAIN THAT HAS STOLEN MY LIFE, MY HOPE, MY HAPPINESS, AND ANY CHANCE I EVER HAVE OF MOVING ON WITH MY LIFE NO MATTER WHAT ELSE I WORK ON OR HOW RIGHT WITH GOD AND THE WORLD I AM.

I get it, ok??  I am powerless.  People telling me  these things that they CANNOT identify with DOES NOT HELP!  Hello!!!!  Remember being in rehab and how it felt to have a non-addict therapist TRY and empathize with you??  It tells us in our own literature that the most powerful weapon we have…for addiction…is another recovering addict!!

So…what is a girl to do?????  Is there virtue in the fact that I suffer and have (sarcastic cutesy smiley faces, rainbows, and puppies attached) “FAITH” that everything will be ok.  Faith with the knowledge of no solution from that faith according to my own evidence and the LACK of evidence I see in other people in this area…is a lie.  Does it make me a better person to “accept” my lot in life when secretly I would rather die than to accept that the best possible life I could hope for for myself and now my unborn child is a spirited woman with so many dreams settling for $780 a month and no prospect of ever completing college or working in a meaningful job??

So uh…YEAH I want to use drugs, or men, or anything to make me feel good.  YEAH I am angry, resentful, and self-seeking…STILL.  YEAH I get how it is SO easy to place denial as a protection in front of those things that make “it all go away”, if even only for a moment (cause sometimes it TRULY is better than it not going away at all).  Yeah I get how I will justify the FUCK out of the things I do.  YEAH at this point in my life…AGAIN… I do not want to live or die.

And then, check this out, I also have a conscience that makes doing these things once I am aware of them impossible or painful if I cannot stop.  I also have a stubborn and very WILLFUL desire to, no matter what, live the BEST possible life I can live by doing what is right, not hurting other people or myself and following God’s will!!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?????????????  WHAT IS THAT JOKE ALL ABOUT???  WHAT A HORRIBLE FUCKING DISEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Malicious, Spammy, Scamming, Likejacking or Just Downright Annoying Apps on Facebook

So…I’m sick of warning everyone individually about all the shitty, spammy, and annoying apps that are out there in Facebook World.  So I am going to start this guide.

If there is a Web of Trust warning there will be a photo of the Web of Trust Scorecard and a link to read the comments people left about why they gave it such a bad warning.

What is Web of Trust you ask??

Web of Trust is the leading website reputation rating tool and one of Mozilla’s most popular add-ons. Our safe surfing tool uses an intuitive traffic-light style rating system to help you see which websites are trusted when you search, surf and shop online.

WOT ratings are powered by a global community of millions of trustworthy users who have rated millions of websites based on their experiences. The WOT add-on provides reputation ratings to search results when you use Google, Facebook, Twitter, Yahoo!, Bing, Wikipedia and other popular sites, helping you protect your computer and personal information. Your online email account – Google Mail, Yahoo! Mail and Hotmail is also protected.

Here is the link to add it on to your Mozilla Firefox Browser:

https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/wot-safe-browsing-tool/

If it has not been rated yet, or they have been tricky and are hiding under the general “facebook apps” links, I will just put a picture and a description as to the issue.

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Friend Buzz is the general name that this app lies under.  What it looks like on your wall is this:

Here is another app from Friend Buzz with bad ratings:

The ratings for this are the worst in every category.  Here is the link to WOT:

http://www.mywot.com/en/scorecard/fb5.apps.friendsy.us

So in general, just don’t add anything having to do with Friend Buzz.

Fun in Your Name – (Created Via-> Http://apps.facebook.com/fun)

 

About the Developer:  Senang Solutions specialized in Internet Social Networking Applications.

Developer Name:  http://www.senang-solutions.com

It is difficult to find a rating on Web of Trust.  Here is some info I found at this website:

http://www.spotnblog.com/facebook-scam-fun-in-your-name/

“Do not install the following Facebook App: Fun in Your Name! by – Senang Solutions specialized in Internet Social Networking Applications.

This App is what you call Likejacking, a form of clickjacking, is a malicious technique of tricking users of a website into posting a Facebook status update for a site they did not intentionally mean to “like”.

Stay away from these kind of “like” comments or Apps, because the people behind it earns loads of money on you being stupid. In worst case you will end of with a Malware infected PC.”

More info about clickjacking:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clickjacking

Warning about Likejacking:

http://www.readwriteweb.com/archives/likejacking_takes_off_on_facebook.php

How to avoid Likejacking:

http://techie-buzz.com/social-networking/avoid-likejacking-clickjacking.html

socialappsmail.com

Friend Rank or 20 Top Friends

Also developed Top Loves and probably some others

Here are some photos of what they look like on your wall and requesting permission.  NOTE HOW MUCH INFO THEY WANT FOR SUCH AN INSIGNIFICANT APP!!!

Here is the Web of Trust Ranking for this developer in general:

Link to the rating:

http://www.mywot.com/en/scorecard/socialappsmail.com

Here is a link to this developer’s fucked up Privacy Policy:

http://www.socialappsmail.com/privacy-policy

Info on Stalker Apps –

These are the apps in which you are promised to be shown who looks at your profile the most. First of all, if you have clicked on these you are so gullible your mama should have just shoved you back in rather than expose the world to your stupidity. Here is a link for info about these:

http://arstechnica.com/web/news/2011/01/those-facebook-stalker-apps-they-dont-work-so-avoid-them.ars

Beware the following messages and/or wall postings from Facebook friends:

Example #1:

I’ve just seen who checks me out the most here on Facebook! You can see who stalks you too!

http://todayurl.com/stalker

Example #2:

I just saw who STALKS me here on Facebook. You can see who creeps around your profile too!

http://todayurl.com/stalker

Example #3:

I just saw who CREEPS around my pics the most here on Facebook. You can see who stalks you too!

http://todayurl.com/stalker

These are all variants of the same scam. If you click on the link, you’re taken to a page that requests your permission to access private information. If you allow it to do so, the message immediately reposts itself on all your friends’ walls and you’re prompted to fill out a phony questionnaire.

What it won’t do is show you your Facebook “stalkers” or reveal the names of people who’ve visited your Facebook page or viewed your photos. The whole thing is a ruse to trick more people to installing the useless app and clicking through to survey pages.

Then there is the “Slap Myself in the Face for Being So Fucking Stupid” Link that people just have to see:

Girl Killed Herself After Father Posted On Her Wall

I will add more as I find them!! Feel free to pass this note around and tag your idiotic friends who need to see this cause they swear up and down the app is fine. Also, private message me any that YOU find that I have missed.

Update: Although this one is not new I just saw it on a friend’s page.

The Dislike Button

Here is a link with some information about this one:

http://mashable.com/2011/05/17/facebook-dislike-button-scam/

We Do Recover: Part 1

The following is inspired by the book Miracles Happen: The Birth of Narcotics Anonymous in Words and Pictures released by Narcotics Anonymous World Services.  Some of the content has been researched and added by the author.

Jimmy K

Incorporated in Chatsworth, California.  The photos in the book will be hard to reproduce but I will try my best to convey the overall feel of the literature as best I can.

The book is dedicated to the memory of Jimmy K.  “His tireless efforts in the early years of our formulation and growth laid the foundation for our movement (p. 7).”

Old pill bottles

Introduction

There seems to be this alternative: either go on as best we can to the bitter ends – jails, institutions or death – or find a new way to live.  In years gone by, very few addicts ever had this last choice.Little White Book

In 2007, there were over 25,065 groups holding over 43,900 weekly meetings in 127 countries.  The improbability of such a movement makes the existence of this God-given program an absolute miracle in the lives of suffering addicts.  There was a time in history when there were none to very few options for addicts who wanted to get clean.  Addiction itself, was a crime.  There was a time when it was illegal for addicts to meet together.  The “truth” about an addict was this: “Once an addict always an addict”.

Drug Use Before and In the Twentieth Century

Drug use has been around probably as long as humans have been around.  It has been used for medicinal purposes, for religious rites and practices, and for recreational purposes.

Wine was used at least from the time of the early Egyptians; narcotics from 4000 B.C.; and medicinal use of marijuana has been dated to 2737 B.C. in China. But not until the 19th cent. A.D. were the active substances in drugs extracted (FactMonster.com).

Ancient paraphernalia (Drug Kit)

Andean mummy hair has provided the first direct archaeological evidence of the consumption of hallucinogens in pre-Hispanic Andean populations, according to recent gas chromatography and mass spectrometry analysis.  Indirect evidence for psychoactive drug use in South America’s ancient populations abound, ranging from the discovery of drug equipment to the identification of hallucinogenic herb residuals in snuffing kits.

In Europe, Swiss Alchemist Paracelsus invented laudanum (opium dissolved into liquid form) in 1541.  It became a widespread curative potion.

Hmmmmmm.......

The use of opium became epidemic in 19th century Europe and in America.  It was commonly used in children’s medicine with cute labels such as “Godfrey’s Cordial”, “Munn’s Elixir”, and get this….”Mother Bailey’s Quieting Syrup” (p. 10).

In 1803, a German pharmacist by the name of F. W. Serturner successfully isolated the active ingredient in opium: Morphine.  Morpheus is the Greek God of sleep and dreams.  This is Morphine’s namesake.  The hypodermic was not invented for about another 40 years (p. 10).  The drug was effective and thought to be harmless.  It’s peak use was during the Civil War in which it is estimated that 400,000 morphine addicts were created in the army alone.

Old ad for morphine: apparently accepted for use as a teething aid

We now had patent medicines such as “Mrs. Winslow’s Soothing Syrup”, “Darby’s Carminative”, and “Ayer’s Cheery Pectorial” (p. 10).  They were particularly popular with older white women from middle and upper classes.  In 1900 there were an estimated 300,000 opiate-dependent people in the U.S.  At this point the affliction was looked upon with sympathy.  When immigrant’s began to have the same addiction issues these views rapidly changed.  Urban tenements and slums developed, poverty increased and so the poor more often turned to alcohol and narcotics.  Lower-class addicts brought the views on addiction to a new light and addiction was driven into criminality, dereliction, and hopeless despair (p. 10-11).

Criminalization of Addiction

Perhaps the earliest recorded example is the prohibition of the use of alcohol under Islamic law (Sharia), which is usually attributed to passages in the Qur’an dating from the 7th century.

Religious intolerance was a motivation for drug prohibition in Christian Europe. In a move interpreted as support for the efforts of the Spanish Inquisition against the Arabs, in a 1484 fiat Pope Innocent VIII banned the use of cannabis. The persecution of heretics in the form of witch hunts also gathered momentum around this time, and frequently targeted users of medicinal and hallucinogenic herbs. The Inquisition proceeded apace in Meso-America and South America, where peyote (péyotl), ololiúqui, toloáche, teonanácatl and other sacred plants of the Mexican culture were prohibited as works of the devil.

The first law outright prohibiting the use of a specific drug in the United States was a San Francisco ordinance which banned the smoking of opium in opium dens in 1875.  Even though the law prohibited the trafficking of opium, laudanum and other tinctures were allowed to persist in medicinal form.  The distinction between its use by white Americans and Chinese immigrants was thus based on the form in which it was ingested: Chinese immigrants tended to smoke it, while it was often included in various kinds of generally liquid medicines often (but not exclusively) used by people of European descent. The laws targeted opium smoking, but not other methods of ingestion.  This was followed by the Harrison Act, passed in 1914, which required sellers of opiates and cocaine to get a license. While originally intended to require paper trails of drug transactions between doctors, drug stores, and patients, it soon became a prohibitive law.  In 1919, the Supreme Court ruled in Doremus that the Harrison Act was constitutional and in Webb that physicians could not prescribe narcotics solely for maintenance.

Then, of course, we had the Prohibition on alcohol.  Most of us know this story so here is a link if you would like to learn more: Prohibition of Alcohol.

In 1936 the Federal Bureau of Narcotics (FBN) noticed an increase of reports of people smoking marijuana, which further increased in 1937. The Bureau drafted a legislative plan for Congress, seeking a new law and the head of the FBN, Harry J. Anslinger, ran a smear campaign against marijuana.  During this particular time frame, the media was swarmed with propaganda regarding the effects of marijuana.

Marijuana Propaganda

Marijuana Propaganda

Marijuana Propaganda

In 1972, United States President Richard Nixon announced the commencement of the so-called “War on Drugs.” Later, President Reagan added the position of drug czar to the President’s Executive Office.

In 1973, New York State introduced mandatory minimum sentences of 15 years to life imprisonment for possession of more than four ounces (113g) of a so-called hard drug, called the Rockefeller drug laws after New York Governor and later Vice President Nelson Rockefeller. Similar laws were introduced across the United States.

California’s broader ‘three strikes and you’re out‘ policy adopted in 1994 was the first mandatory sentencing policy to gain widespread publicity and was subsequently adopted in most United States jurisdictions. This policy mandates life imprisonment for a third criminal conviction of any felony offense.

After the Harrison Act courts refused to define addiction as a disease.  Addicts were driven underground and were subjected to street violence, diseases, arrests, convictions, and incarcerations.  Dispensing clinics were opened.  in 1919 thirteen municipalities had 44 opiate dispensing clinics aimed at detox or opium maintenance.  The government perceived these as a threat and had them all closed by 1924 (p. 12).  There was another increase in crime.  In 1929 Congress adopted The Porter Act.  Treatment facilities were established finally for addicts.  One was in Lexington, Kentucky and the other was in Fort Worth, Texas.  These were operational in the 30’s.

Lexington, Kentucky

Fort Worth

In the early years they primarily served as prison hospitals for convicted addicts.  Those who entered voluntarily were detoxified.  Treatment included “sweating it out” with hard work on the farm in Kentucky.

We now have employee assistance programs, hospital and residential-based treatment, and 12 step fellowships.  In the 30s and 40s doctors were threatened into not only stopping treatment of addicts but also into reporting them to authorities (p. 13).

William Burroughs' Junkie allows a peak into the limited treatment options available to addicts

At one point it was illegal for any two addicts to be seen together.  Addicts went even further underground where drugs were bought on the black market and the street or to complain of the “right symptoms” to doctors in order to satisfy their needs.

After WW2 addicts were put into two general categories: those addicted to pills, sedatives, barbiturates, laudanum, Demerol, etc.; and “dope fiends”.  The second category more often needed to obtain their drugs through illicit means (p. 16).

Searches, harassment, and incarceration were normal parts of everyday life.  Addicts and doctors who attempted to help them were seen as criminals.  These are the truths of an addict from this time.  We may not fully understand the words spoken by Jimmy K, that very few addicts DID have a choice like we have found today in Narcotics Anonymous.